January 2nd of this year I found out I was going to be a mom. I think my first words were Holy Crap (said quietly, but were louder than a 1,000 drums)!!! I'm 28 years old, an although an amazing aunt and a lover of children, motherly is not a word used to describe me. Matter of fact, if you looked up NOT READY TO HAVE CHILDREN on google, you would find a nice picture of me sipping a fruity drink, sitting poolside on some island. Yes, that's more my speed. Get up & go & leave your worries & cares behind you.
Well, that is all about to change. My due date is in a week and I have experienced every emotion possible, happiness, sadness, joy, pain, anxiety, fear, worrisome & even despair. I've read all the magazines, blogs, books and even listened to every parent (good & not so good), and I have to admit, I am just as clueless now as I was 9 months ago. In less than 10 days I will have a baby that I have to wait on hand and foot. A child that I have to provide for, care for, nurture and protect. If that's not enough to scare you, then I don't know what will.
Don't get me wrong, I will have plenty of family support & loved ones, but knowing that I have to drop my selfish bravado and completely put someone else's needs, wants & desires before my very own is no easy task for someone like myself. The one difference I have experienced from January to now, I'm actually looking forward to this. I don't know how good I'll be (1st goal is to make it 1 week with out an ER visit). I'm sure I'll make a hundred mistakes, but the thought of having a little one is now less of a fear and more of a dream. I can't help but think nightly, I wonder if the baby will look like me, what it will like, will it be smart. Thousands of images play through my head daily and I can honestly say I can't wait!!
You guys bear with me. I'll try and keep you posted on how things go. If you see me out & about and I forget to put the baby's shoes on, or leave the diaper bag on top of the car, or heck forget to comb my own hair, PLEASE, don't call CPS, politley give me a helping hand and understand I'm doing my best.
Until next time...
Tree,
The Mom to BE
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Don't worry, you'll be fine. Just remember, if you need a selfish moment, call grandma and asked her if she wants some 'quality time' with the grandbaby aka "you can go and party' haha
ReplyDeleteLOL, thxs Izzy, duly noted "quality time" for grandma equals party time for me!! HAHA
ReplyDeleteNo worries Tree- you will somehow figure out everything one way or another. Know there will be challenges along the way, but you won't believe all of the joy you'll get from each day. My advice...hang in there in the first few days, first couple weeks, then first couple months as it gets easier and easier, plus more rewarding. You'll be a great Mom!!!
ReplyDeleteHey lady, you'll be fine. Please don't think that you are supposed to know everything about being a parent because no one does. You have to just take it day by day. Please believe that you will be able to put your baby's needs before your own, because everything that you thought you knew about yourself is going to a change. Your little treasure is going to transform you in ways you couldn't even imagine. It can and will be tough at times but it's so worth it. Having a support system is key and making a little "me time" is pertinent.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your little one, & i hope you've been walking so that you can breeze through your labor...:)...You got this girl, your going to be am awesome mom!
Congratulations! Wishing you the best. @Charmed0813 Twitter
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to see the new baby. Don't worry God got your back. It is the hardest job or task you will ever have. But it is the greatest joy and feeling you will ever have. The love a mother gets from her child can not be spoken of. You will do great because you have a wonderful heart and you have family and friends and most of all God on your side. Congrats love ya. Welcome to motherhood the best Job on EARTH
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